As almost everyone in this life, I’ve met a problem of life meaning. What is this all for? Am I designed for smth specific? What am I looking for?

And as everyone, I have no answer. And I believe (partially) that meaning of my life is searching. So, people that give up because of failure or failures are completely wrong. Searching is made of failures as well as of success.

Just deal with it. And even if you won’t find the answer, you’d know, that you’ve done everything possible to it.