I sincerely wish myself luck!
I already have strength and persistance, aim and path to run through, so the last thing is luck. A bit of luck – and I am able to conquer the world

#fortunamajor
I sincerely wish myself luck!
I already have strength and persistance, aim and path to run through, so the last thing is luck. A bit of luck – and I am able to conquer the world

#fortunamajor
besides ephemeral right to choose we have
there is also quite real right to fail at choosing
there is no democracy in choosing anything
just chaotic decisions made by a frightened mind

Still need to finish the chapter. But that’s ridiculous
I can’t find any proper words
Everything seems so senseless
Hate getting stupid feedbacks
Hate not getting what’s going on
Can’t find any courage
Can’t help it
Today I watched a video dedicated to success and particularly the things needed to become successful.
No one actually knows the secret, the answer, but mr. St. John has set aside some traits of success.
The big eight I call them now

I don’t think you need all of them to move forward. But some of them may lead you to your vision of success. For me the most important parts are:
The rest is optional
This doesn’t mean it will help you to reach your aim. But doing nothing will definitely lead you to nothing
Hope one day I would be able to say that I wasn’t alone on this way to success. I was with all support of this world.
It’s great to have eight to be great
to be true.
too weird to feel the same you’ve felt previously, long years before. And now you turn on the ‘play’ button and feel the same. whatever you think on this matter, you still feel the same and it feels like a time machine. 
so enjoy your time travel while you can.
You cannot change any person, including yourself, and cannot deal with that as well.
So what to do?

need to be anywhere else. where everything is different. and maybe better.
Guess what?
I’ve become a little older 🙂
But I don’t feel that at all. Thanks to my twin – Sasha – I have the most interesting and the fullest life.
My family, my friends – thanks you all, you’ve made my life unbelievable.
What is more essential in your life? No, what is the most essential of all?

The belief in better life and the eternal endless hope in the coming day.
This helps you not giving up.
Always.
My grandma’s died last week. The funerals, wake, crying relatives and friends. I’m exhausted.
I don’t realize all happened, though I remember everything. It seems, she sleeps in her room on her bed and in the morning she’ll kiss me and say she loves me.
She was ill for a year. Some old diseases worsened the situation and she’s gone. At least she didn’t suffer for a long time.
I miss her so much. She used to tell us, that we’ll cry so hard when she’ll be gone. She was right, we cry and I don’t know how to stop.
My grandpa died the same day, but 18 years earlier. I believe they are together there and are happy. I hope, they feel better there and watch us from the sky and smile.
I will always love you, but I don’t think I’ll put up with this one day.


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