Category: Per Aspera…

Per Aspera ad Astra – through hardships to the stars. This category is dedicated to the journey itself: the challenges, lessons, struggles, and moments of growth that shaped both my life and my creative path. Because every dream worth reaching comes with obstacles to overcome.

The Second Draft

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Is finally ready! Ta-da-da-da!

It still needs tons for editing and, first of all, my inner powers to perform that editing. But that will be tomorrow. Today I am celebrating. As The Ice Beast Tale is a story I’ve been trying to embody since I was eleven years old, I guess. And my dream has finally come true!

I almost remember the day when it all started with a word OraolΡ‘ that came up to my mind. And here we are, decades later. Extraordinary feeling.

It is not the end of a story though, but a beginning. Which joys me most of all. As I am stuck with the characters I’ve been loving for years.

And as a New Year bonus to myself, I decided to duplicate my blog notes in Ukrainian. I never felt more connected to my people story than I am now. So let it be.

As per will and destiny

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Π”Ρ€ΡƒΠ³Ρƒ Ρ‡Π΅Ρ€Π½Π΅Ρ‚ΠΊΡƒ…Π½Π°Ρ€Π΅ΡˆΡ‚Ρ– Π·Π°Π²Π΅Ρ€ΡˆΠ΅Π½ΠΎ! Π’Π°-Π΄Π°-Π΄Π°-Π΄Π°!

Π’ΠΎΠ½Π° Ρ‰Π΅ ΠΏΠΎΡ‚Ρ€Π΅Π±ΡƒΡ” Ρ‚ΠΎΠ½Π½ΠΈ рСдагування Ρ‚Π°, насампСрСд, ΠΌΠΎΡ—Ρ… Π²Π½ΡƒΡ‚Ρ€Ρ–ΡˆΠ½Ρ–Ρ… сил, Ρ‰ΠΎΠ± Π²ΠΈΠΊΠΎΠ½Π°Ρ‚ΠΈ Ρ†Π΅ рСдагування. АлС Ρ†Π΅ Π±ΡƒΠ΄Π΅ Π·Π°Π²Ρ‚Ρ€Π°. Π‘ΡŒΠΎΠ³ΠΎΠ΄Π½Ρ– я ΡΠ²ΡΡ‚ΠΊΡƒΡŽ. ΠžΡΠΊΡ–Π»ΡŒΠΊΠΈ Β«Π‘ΠΊΠ°Π·Π°Π½ΠΊΠ° ΠΏΡ€ΠΎ ΠšΡ€ΠΈΠΆΠ°Π½ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ Π—Π²Ρ–Ρ€Π°Β» β€” Ρ†Π΅ історія, яку я, ΠΌΠ°Π±ΡƒΡ‚ΡŒ, намагалася Π²Ρ‚Ρ–Π»ΠΈΡ‚ΠΈ Π² Тиття дСсь Π· одинадцяти Ρ€ΠΎΠΊΡ–Π². Π† ця мрія Π½Π°Ρ€Π΅ΡˆΡ–Ρ‚Ρ– здійснилася!

МайТС ΠΏΠ°ΠΌ’ΡΡ‚Π°ΡŽ Ρ‚ΠΎΠΉ дСнь, ΠΊΠΎΠ»ΠΈ всС почалося Π·Ρ– слова ΠžΡ€Π°ΠΎΠ»Ρ‘, Ρ‰ΠΎ застрягло Π² ΠΌΠΎΡ—ΠΉ Π³ΠΎΠ»ΠΎΠ²Ρ–. Π† ось ΠΌΠΈ Ρ‚ΡƒΡ‚, дСсятиліття ΠΏΠΎΡ‚ΠΎΠΌΡƒ. НадзвичайнС відчуття.

АлС Ρ†Π΅ Π°ΠΆ ніяк Π½Π΅ ΠΊΡ–Π½Π΅Ρ†ΡŒ історії, Π° лишС Ρ—Ρ— ΠΏΠΎΡ‡Π°Ρ‚ΠΎΠΊ. Π† Ρ†Π΅ ΠΌΠ΅Π½Π΅ Ρ‚Ρ–ΡˆΠΈΡ‚ΡŒ Π½Π°ΠΉΠ±Ρ–Π»ΡŒΡˆΠ΅. Π‘ΠΎ ΠΆ Ρ†Π΅ Π·Π½Π°Ρ‡ΠΈΡ‚ΡŒ, Ρ‰ΠΎ я застряла Π· пСрсонаТами, яких люблю, Ρ‰Π΅ Π½Π° дСякий час.

Π†, як Π½ΠΎΠ²ΠΎΡ€Ρ–Ρ‡Π½ΠΈΠΉ бонус, я Π²ΠΈΡ€Ρ–ΡˆΠΈΠ»Π° писати ΠΎΠ±ΠΈΠ΄Π²ΠΎΠΌΠ° ΠΌΠΎΠ²Π°ΠΌΠΈ Ρƒ Ρ†ΡŒΠΎΠΌΡƒ Π±Π»ΠΎΠ·Ρ–: Π΄ΠΎΠ΄Π°Π»Π° Π£ΠΊΡ€Π°Ρ—Π½ΡΡŒΠΊΠΎΡ—. Ніколи Π½Π΅ ΠΏΠΎΡ‡ΡƒΠ²Π°Π»Π° сСбС Ρ‚Π°ΠΊΠΎΡŽ ΡΠΏΠΎΡ€Ρ–Π΄Π½Π΅Π½ΠΎΡŽ Π· Ρ–ΡΡ‚ΠΎΡ€Ρ–Ρ”ΡŽ ΠΌΠΎΠ³ΠΎ Π½Π°Ρ€ΠΎΠ΄Ρƒ як Π·Π°Ρ€Π°Π·. Π’ΠΎΠΆ Π½Π΅Ρ…Π°ΠΉ Ρ‚Π°ΠΊ Ρ– Π±ΡƒΠ΄Π΅.

Π‘ΠΎ Ρ‚ΠΎΠ³ΠΎ Ρ” воля Ρ– доля

Happy Holidays

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It is the most wonderful time of a year, according to some sources. Well, the year we’ve left behind wasn’t too easy or too happy. Or any other kind of ‘too’. Pretty hard, pretty interesting, pretty exhausting. Though, I spent it with my family staying safe – it is more than some people have.

But I do want to get more out of it. So I won’t pretend I am content with what I currently have. I am grateful that I am alive and I have work and my loved ones near. But it is always more out there, isn’t it?

So Happy Holidays everyone! Never stop seeking more for yourself! And may happiness and success pursuit you next year!

Nonsense

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Yesterday Canada celebrated Thanksgiving Day. My second Thanksgiving celebration since I moved to Canada. However, last time, I didn’t feel the spirit of the holiday, I was horrified of being moved to another country.

This time it was way way better. We asked our friends to come by, we cooked so many tasty things, we watched movies and talked. That was heartwarming for real.

We also played some board games, and one was called Nonsense. You answer a question, right down the answer on a piece of paper, fold it and hand it over to a person next to you so they could answer a following question, but they couldn’t see what you answer before, and so on, so you get a little story in the end. A little random story, to be honest.

The weirder answers you put, the more interesting it gets in the end. More drama, said I yesterday πŸ™‚

And it helped me with kind of a block in my head. All this overthinking and doubting bring you to an understandable end. You stuck. So I am glad I unstuck myself in such a pleasant way.

Have a great week everyone! And hope you’d feel joy out of this Autumn.

Writers’ Stories

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I’ve watched some movies about writers before. But kept denying that all that happened – had actually affected them.

How wrong was I. Isn’t it obvious that every word they put to a piece of paper is autobiographical? With dragons and mermaids, with rockets and far-far-far away planets. But all about what happened to them.

People write stories, as well as they read ones for different reasons. But no matter you read or you write – you have a common thing with others, a tiny secret key – you want to find someone who is capable to understand your feelings. If you love someone and you lose someone – isn’t it the most natural thing to want that feeling to be shared with someone? Share it with a book when you have no other options. Or no willing.

I rewatched some of moves dedicated to writers today. And have been thinking whole evening about what happened to them and to each other person brave enough to tell their story to the world.

A very thoughtful evening I had. And I hope it made me a bit stronger. Stronger enough to move on. Maybe you’d like to watch them too. Or maybe you have already watched them. And I hope you liked them as I did.

Finding Neverland

2004 ‧ Drama/Family

Saving Mr. Banks

2013 ‧ Drama/Historical drama

My Boy Jack

2007 ‧ War/Drama

Magical weekend

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Thanks to #calgaryexpo2023 we met so many wonderful people today! ❀️ my dreams literally came true this evening!

I have hardly ever imagined that I would be able to stand near Bonnie Wright or Andy Serkis. Ever. And more than that – to share it with my family. Amazing evening, amazing people.

Thank you Calgary for this possibility!

Today was a great day indeed. Let’s hope for more coming!

P.S. We’ve also met so many nice people cosplaying. Among them I want to highlight Kratos and Hagrid, that was awesome to take a pic with them!

It is time

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You know when it is good timing. You feel it.

When to go,

When to stop.

When to read.

When to write.

AI created me a nice picture of Kratos aka God of War. Love this one. Inspires to create.

In most cases it feels like itching on the top of your fingers. Go. Write. Create. I am trying not to lose the feeling and not to give up. Because it is the only way to see the final result. The story I want to tell, to share with you.

So how do I feel about it right now?

It is a WRITING night.

Isn’t it too late…

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…to say thank you? For that I am still alive. That I faced today’s sunrise. That I saw my mom today and talked to my husband. I have tasty food on my plate, a roof above my head, a bed to sleep in.

I have multiple possibilties to study, to work, to explore, to believe, to create.

That is definitely enough for one day to be thankful for. Each day of our lives.

So I say thank you. And I will do my best not to forget being thankful every day.

At the end

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Three days before New Year. As pretty any other person I have already summed this year. So far it tore me apart, forced me to leave my country, my husband and my life. It killed people I knew.

After such a line I have almost no willing to continue. But I have to. No one will go this path but me.

This year I saw almost every corner of Europe, moved to another side of the Earth and faced thirty degrees frost. I found new friends, hugged the old ones.

I met incredible people of Moldova, Romania, Poland, Lithuania, Italy and many-many others. Each of them kept my faith in people alive. I wish they knew how grateful I am to where I am today. I wish the whole world knew what each of them had done to help my country.

Though I still miss my husband and will see the firt day of 2023 without him, I hope it will last not that long. Hard to imagine, I have not seen him since 26 of February when I passed the border of Moldova, in a small village named Palanca.

Thank you for making me stronger this year. I hope to have more reasons to be joyful next year.